AN UPDATE TO YOU
im_naku & JOENN
im_naku X JOENNmusic
This song is written to my mom and is depicted in a way that it feels like I'm sending letters or messaging her.
Me writing to my mom, expressing how I'm glad I didn't give up and stuck through school and growing up without her.
Time has passed, this is me letting her know that I graduated from nursing school and obtained my nursing license; however, it's not something I imagined myself doing and described it as something I wouldn't miss if I stopped doing it.
This is me expressing to her that I'm finally devoting my time to the one thing I love and that truly passionate for: Music.
This line references two songs prior in the album: 11am. I'm doubting my thoughts and why I'm still here. I'm stating that I'm still in bed despite talking about waking up at 11am and breaking bad habits.
This line is a simple woe on virality and how effort does not always mean success and success doesn't always come from hard work. I'm complaining that I want to be able to write whatever kind of song I want without needing to follow trends or hit funny meme material or appease to a certain type of content form.
Nobody wants to leave their family, but out of frustration and being raised Christian, I begin to lash out and blame God for taking her away from us.
While I start to feel like I'm in a successful spot from my perspective, I know it may not last and that's okay. I just wish my mom could see where I am.
I'm expressing that a big reason that I do anything music related is because of her. After all, she was the one who forced me and my siblings to take piano lessons. I'm confident in my own success that I wish she could see what people say about my music. I finally feel like I'm escaping a negative cycle that's been happening in my head.